Visual representation:
And the anxiety starts. The thoughts whirling in your mind are many, and seem to be multiplying by the second, but here’s a handy transcription:
- OK this is going to the whole office
- 93 people
- Which means it’s people I don’t even know
- Which means they might think ‘what the hell does she want?’
- But then again even the people who know me might think that.
- Haha they will probably think this is such a loser email.
- Like who sends an email like this? Cool people sure don’t!
- Like that girl in the other team – the one that is always perfect and never gets anything wrong? She would never write this.
- Haha even my boss will laugh at me.
- And Oh God imagine if I accidentally attached something????
- Like my CV.
- Or a cover letter?!?!
- Or like one of those pictures I have saved on my desktop.
- Like one of the Benedict Cumberbatch ones
- Oh God.
- I just imagined that.
- Or what if I fuck up the grammar??!
- Like I’m sure this doesn’t even sound like it’s in English right now.
- I can’t really speak English properly let’s face it.
- And then everyone will know.
- Although they probably know already so I will just confirm that.
- Oh God I should just not do this.
- Yeah let’s not do this.
- NO! NO! I have to do it. I *have* to force myself. This is what successful people do! They push their boundaries! I’ve read it on LinkedIn??
- OK wait. Let’s be reasonable here. What if I delay it? I could totally do it later.
- Or tomorrow. It’s not urgent anyway.
- But then people will wonder what I’m waiting for??
- Oh God this is why I can’t progress in life.
- That girl in the other team would never be scared of this.
- She would never be scared and look how popular she is. Everybody loves her because she isn’t scared.
- And everything she does is just cool.
- OK, this is it. I’m gonna send it.
- I won’t get fired for sending an email will I?
- Let me check again just in case.
- Come on nobody would get fired for a work email about dvds.
- Or I mean if they do fire you then it’s surely an overreaction.
- I could definitely speak to HR.
- Maybe I should get someone else to write it actually? If somebody else writes it it's surely going to be fine.
- NO. This is it. I’m sending it.
- Wait let me send it to myself first as a test.
- Yep, it works. It looks legit. I’m gonna send it.
- SENT.
- OH GOD.
- OK let’s just forget about it.
- It’s done.
- Nobody is replying. Yeah they’re probably thinking ‘what does this person want’ and ‘omg this is so lame let’s never speak to her again’.
